It Has Been Awhile Hasn’t It?

3 min readFeb 21, 2022

I have not been ignoring any of my favorite writers, nor not so favorite writers here on Medium. There are times that I actually miss reading and engaging on the Medium platform. My hiatus from writing has more to do with cognitive load than anything else, something that even with the best available heuristics has led me to this withdrawal and pause. My life has certainly and irrevocably evolved upon entering a stage that both requires and demands a degree of mental/physical effort and time that was previously reserved for introspection and writing.

In case you did not suspect or know from my previous writings, I actually aspired for economic empowerment through and by my career pursuits and social activities. This started from the tender age of seventeen. There were many instances where my aspirations were frustratingly hampered by sabotage, misfortune, and incompetence, just to name a few, as well as the felicitous moments of short-term opportunity and plenty of good will that diverted my attention from the goal of economic empowerment. I chalk it up to the vagaries of life with its timeliness and randomness in tow.

Economic empowerment is the capacity of women and men to participate in, contribute to and benefit from growth processes in ways that recognise the value of their contributions, respect their dignity and make it possible to negotiate a fairer distribution of the benefits of growth.

I used the past tense participle ‘aspired’ in my previous paragraph which also brings me pause. I hope to be re-inspired into aspiring for economic empowerment again someday. But that takes a tremendous amount of effort and cognitive load to achieve…for me at least. Those closer to me may assume that I am still on this path but that perspective in its entirety is something I currently do not share in anymore. The affect from life’s ups and downs has made me only feel the need to prepare for the inevitability of retirement and not the revitalized possibilities of such retirement. It may still be a ways off, but sunk cost bias has given to mojo paralysis in me.

It has shown up in the topic of race and its seemingly immutable construct. It is one of the biggest saboteurs to my economic empowerment — which is inclusive and not just individualistic. Sadly, to even speak out against it seems to give the notion of race more credence which is not what I intended. I still maintain that this scam and its toxicity continues to do great harm and is a great threat to our humanity and…